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strange little girl 1 Nov 05 - Tuesday - 1:42 a.m. I think that one of my my biggest problems is that I never really know quite how to appear normal in front of other people. It’s like normalcy just does not apply to me or something. I smile too much, laugh to myself, and I say strange things like how I would marry PacMan if I could. In Court today, they were playing some Hungarian Rhapsody in the waiting area. A while after this guy struck up a conversation with me, I actually said to him, “Such good violin wasted on a bunch of lawyers.” That was met with stunned silence. Then laughter. Then he admitted to me that he didn’t actually noticed the music till I mentioned it. Then he left quickly to hunt down an opponent. There was this day when someone asked me how I was feeling and I told him that I wanted to kill something small and furry, except that as a matter of principle, I only kill virgins on full moon nights. Or the time I told someone that I like to swim because I like to play music in my head and float along. And I particularly like to swim in the NUS pool during breaks because women hardly swim there and therefore the bathroom is empty and nice and I can talk to myself in peace. Or how when I see one of those flattened preserved ducks during Chinese New Year I will point and say “Ouch! That’s so painful!!” Or how I told the waitress that we needed an extra set of cutlery so that we won’t fight. Or the “I like new stationery; New stationery makes me happy.” My new roommate at work, A Van, has actually learned to ignore me when I explode to myself at work. She’s learned to differentiate between “she’s talking to herself aloud” and “she’s talking to me” and answer at the appropriate times. I figure that I appear quite sane to people therefore it always comes as a rude shock when they realise that I am actually completely out of my mind. Like how no one can actually believe that I smoke and drink occasionally because I look like “such a nice, polite and good girl.” Maybe if I start looking a little weird, people will be less frightened by the strange behaviour. I suppose by now you’d probably form the opinion that I am quite embarrassing to be around ofttimes. Sometimes I wished I were less socially inept. * I'm incredibly slow and lazy and all my photo links in the past entries don't work anymore...yes yes yes...In any event, here are some really old photos I only got off my ass to upload today: | |||||||||